What is faith? The dictionary describes it as complete trust or confidence in someone or something. I’m not so sure that is the definition for me. It is a good definition but I don’t know if anyone has complete faith or trust in everything.
And faith for some of us, including me, is not easy, I have had faith in many things and many people; I have been betrayed so sometimes I doubt my own faith and my own feelings and perceptions.  Doubt and faith go hand in hand.  Doubt is not the opposite of faith, it is an element of faith.  
We all have doubts and we all live with uncertainty.  And for most of us we have faith things will work out.  Doubt is often a good thing.  We doubt what we have faith in, doubt our own feelings.  It questions what we hear and see, and helps us question what we are taught to believe, asks us to validate our own beliefs.  Doubt creates questions that can help us grow and learn.
And sometimes doubt can be detrimental to us. Doubt can kill more dreams than failure can when our doubts immobilize us and trigger our fears; when doubt paralyzes us emotionally and we cannot step forward because we doubt ourselves or others.  Doubt can create questions based in fear and destroy our faith altogether in something or someone.
So is doubt good or bad?  Is faith good or bad? We will always have doubts, so It is understanding that love and faith are the strongest when we learn to trust in spite of our doubts.
These are hard lessons learned.  Faith is not easy.
I experienced something recently that affirmed my faith.  Not only in God, the universe, the spirits that watch over us, but in myself and in others.  I had a rough night for a couple nights and I was questioning everything.  Me, my lover and friend, my purpose, my career, my goals, you name it.  I was full of doubt and wondering why I was even trying to make sense of things.  In the past it was my mantra to run away but I couldn’t even though it was the only thing on my mind.  I do not like uncertainty and I felt like I was not important and what my life was about was not important.  I was looking at it all with a human heart.  This is not a bad thing, but when we are faithful we understand that things happen for a reason and if we have faith the universe places us right where we need to be.  My friend says grace will not put you where God cannot keep you.  I like that and I think of it when I have doubts. I was asleep and I was awakened when I heard someone singing, not actual singing but more of a chant or a call like the whales do.  It was beautiful and it felt like he was singing to all of creation and all at once I felt a shift.  Say I am crazy but if you experienced it like I did you would know it is something magical and it was a message.  And I felt something touch me.  It told me that it was okay to be afraid, okay to doubt and okay to be amid all the uncertainty of the future.  
It is not meant to make the journey for me easier and I will still have doubts and fears.  I will still smile when I am happy and cry when my heart is broken.  What it is meant do is allow me to have faith that no matter how hard things get, no matter the hurt or betrayal, that there is a reason and purpose and it will make me stronger and I will understand it all as a blessing and a lesson.  
It reminds me to have faith in myself most of all and to live my beliefs every day.  To remember to question the world and God and understand that I am here to be a part of this world and help people as much as I can. It reminds me that I am part of the best parts of humanity.